Two-Oh-Oh-Ten has been a remarkable year.
I learned something new every other day.
The most significant memory will be celebrating our third honeymoon in Prague. To my dearest all-in-one partner AKA my husband, thank YOU for turning 1 o my dream a reality. Never has it crossed my mind that I would be able to visit Europe at this early stage of life. The unbelievable surprise which surpasses all surprises.
Twenty-Ten was awesome. Okay, I admit, not entirely.
Friends come & go, which I can’t fathom. Now, I am not referring to acquaintances. Those bunch means nothing in my life. I’m talking about closest friend. Yes, I lost one best-friend. It was e most agonizing experience, for this year alone, thus far. It was hard. There were tears. Yeah, it was grievous. :’( I will go in-depth on this in another entry.
On a brighter note, I met new people, made more friends. I laughed until I couldn’t breathe, a lot too!
I learned I have to make my own way in this twisted ironic world.
I am grateful and feel blessed on how colourful, my life has been. Not forgetting the increasing “assignment” as well as e additional unexpected kachiinnnggg, be it huge or little. Alhamdulillah.
Overall, it has been getting better & even better as every single year passed. I’m loving it. I am SO looking forward to 2011. Anticipating what’s in store for me. Bring it on, Baby!
In a couple o hours time, the 26th edition of my life story is about to come to an end. But No; I’m not dying. Ok, that’s funny. I need to re-phrase it. *LOL* There will be a continuation come midnight. In a brand new book.
Moving on I am gonna share w U readers what I aim to achieve in this coming brand new year.
To lead a healthy lifestyle. I notice a trend of over-eating. I gained a whole lot o weight. I know, I know. I am not fat. But e weight that I put on this year alone is macabre!!! And at the alarming rate I am going, it’s not shocking if I turn into a fatso. Those who’ve known or seen me before will agree at how hefty I look now.
This was taken in 2005. I was a size 24 back then. Now? I can't even zip up this jeans. *Phhffft*
Ok, this is hard. But here goes. 1 o my secret that I dare not tell anyone. I can no longer fit into almost all of my jeans. I tried forcing my way tru. I managed to. But guess what?! My jean's button burst out. So, there goes. Yes, I AM FAT. I told chu. Not one, but 2 of my jeans. I don't dare destroying e rest o my denims. So, U must be wondering, why dun I just change my entire wardrobe? It is simply because I am a slim-gone-voluptuos-girl in denial. I cannot accept the fact I m pudgy.
Current Me. Raw, unedited. Take note of that chubby face, double chin, beefy arms and tellytubby body.
In this brand new year, I hope to eat moderately, healthily, and most importantly, stop binging on junkies. The last bit will be the most challenging part. I can live without sweet stuffs, but I need to munch on something. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE tidbits. So, howwwww??? *wails*
Not forgetting, exercising regularly. Another tough part. Talking is easy, do-ing it is arduous. Come on people. Do not tell me U enjoy working out. It’s total bullshit. I used to have an idea I will enjoy working out. Henceforth, I signed myself up w True Fitness. Initially I was very ON. But after a few months, it became a chore, and my attendance deterioted tremendously. Until to a point I was absent for nearly a month. Reason being, fasting month. Total bullshit, I know. I am full of reasons. Just so that I will stop feeling guilty “throwing” my 90 bux just like that. E moment I hit my 1 year membership, I withdrew myself. After which my weight kept on multiplying. It alarmed the shit out of me. I don't want not looking good. Now, I hated looking at my reflection.When friends mentioned that I put on weight, it hurts my err, ego. I kept asking Yus & baby sisters if I looked fat whenever I put something on before heading out. All the time, I received a “No” as an answer. But, I know they are just trynna make me feel better. But it doesn’t help because I know those were lies. =(
My ideal weight will be 44 kilograms. My weight now? I chose not to reveal. I do not even want to think about it. Once I hit my safe zone, maybe then, I will share. I believe I CAN! Insya allah. Motivation and perseverance will keep me back on track. Mantra-ing I CAN.. I CAN.. I CAN… I WILL.. I WILL… I WILL…!
Anyways, enough on body issue, i need to treat my eyes w care too. This year alone, i had eye infection for at least 6 freaking times. Can u believe it?! O-0
Next , I hope to be a better wife, daughter and sister. At times, My temper can be horrendous. ‘Nuff said. At the same time, I want to spend more time with parents. They are getting older and Dad’s getting weak. I do not want to regret in later part of my life. I love my family very dearly. So, while I still can. I should and I will.
Third, in order to be a good daughter, I have to be a better Muslimah. This will be a dream come true for my parents. I know, they will be the happiest if I fullfill the rukun Islam. I am not doing this for my parents, it's about time I change for the better spiritually. Allah has been answering my prayers and showering me with "wealth" and luck. I won't be forever lucky. Life is full of it's ups and downs.That I am aware. I have to be prepared. Allah loathe someone who doesnt appreciate life. By the word appreciate, in Islam, one have to do the "compulsory mission". And in my case, I have to work on this. And lesser complains as well as boasting. Insya allah. Amin.
- Last but not least, I WANT to overcome my fear, which is driving. Yes, I am still having the jitters everytime I am seated in the driver's seat. Before every journey, I will "bismillah" countless times. Along the way, too. LOL! For this coming year, I WANT to drive more & be a pro. Quick, "Aminkan". I need the motivation and cheers. ;P Plus owning my very own "toy". Provided e price of COE resumes back to normal.
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And with that, I shall end my second and last post for 2010. Oh yeah, I forgot 1 very important resolution, which is to blog all the time!!! But of course non-nonsensical stuffs! Heee~!
Have a blast for the countdowns people, no matter where U are, even if it's at home! Embrace the last few moments with ur love ones. Every single second is precious.
Let's countdown to 2011 together!!!! Till we meet again, next year!!! WOOT!
Hugs & Kisses
Yours Truly
xxxRaffxxx
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