iHave gone missing for more than a month.
iHave not even take a peek at my own blog, let alone my blogger site.
iHave zero intention of updating this space of mine.
Not until yesterday.
To tell you the truth, I was at one of my lowest peak in my life on the 13th March 2011. A date I will remember till my last breathe. I wish I can let everything out here. Share it with you, but I can't. [I did confide on Twitter, my ranting space, how very upset I was, tho. :(]
Everyone has problems.Some people are just better at hiding them than others. I happened to be one of those people.
There's just some things in life which is best to keep mum;
I learned never to tell your problems to anyone. 20% do not care and the remaining 80% are glad you have them.
As I grow up... I began to realize it becomes less important to have more friends & more important to have REAL ones. I can either choose to mourn over it silently or open my big mouth, telling the entire universe. However, I can't bring myself to pour out my heartaches & miseries and having the courage to deal with strangers/acquantainces/haters sneering & feeling extremely happy for me when I am at my most vulnerable. Neither do I want any sympathy.
So, what I did?
I confide in a friend. Just ONE friend. Someone whom I trust.Someone who truly understands. [To the person I shared my tears with, from the bottom of my broken heart, thank U very much for being there, my friend! :')]
I made a decision, picked myself up & moved on.
I am feeling way better than I was nearly 2 months back, thanks! No, I am not going in depth of the issue. Neither will I give U any hints. It's up to individual to analyze & come up with ur own imaginary storyline. I have already put the past behind me. It was deal doned and there's nothing I can do to undo it. What did happened was never my fault, and I have learned to let go & come to terms with it. It was never easy but I did it. I am proud of myself. *Patting myself*
Actually, This entry is a special post to each & every single one of my silent blog readers. Despite me not being active, I was pleasantly surprise when I came to know just now that the number of my readers last month alone was 111. I know it is NOT a big deal at all. Famous bloggers have that numbers of viewers in merely 5 minutes. But it is something to me. It means ALOT. I totally appreciate it that people from various regions of the universe namely the USA, Netherlands, Dubai, Australia, HongKong, Canada, Bahrain [this must be my sister-in-law, Kak Ain, kan??! ;)], Mexico, and not forgetting our neighbour, Malaysia and my homeland, Singapore (iBelieve my husband plays a BIG role in this.) Let U on a secret, Yus will without fail check his Twitter timeline every single day just to read my tweets, skipping through the rest he's following.
Side Note to Yus : Might as well U unfollow the rest, HoneyB. Anyways, thanks, darling, for urging me to blog again. *iLoveU*
Back to the topic of my readership, Thank YOU from the bottom of my heart, for your dedication. Doesnt matter if you happened to chanced upon my blog or have been checking my site every other day just to check if I have added in any latest entry. You made my day. I feel contented enough knowing that someone out there is interested about my life or my opinion on how I feel about certain issues. It might be crappy, but still, you guys tolerated that, and gave me another reason why I should not stop blogging or rather bullshitting. ;p
To be honest, numbers is not an issue. Who am I to have thousands of people liking or even hating my piece, ey? Even if I do have only 1 follower, I am already BEAMING. :'D But, honestly, Im touched.
XieXie ni...
Terima Kasih...
Nandri...
Dank Je Wel...
Shukran...
M goi saa...
Gra'cias...
Before I end my second post for the day...
iAm BACK & U'LL BE HEARING MORE OF ME!!!
iHave a whole load of things to share!!! I can't wait for my next post, myself. :))
iPwomise it will be soon!!!
Im loving e Loves & Lusts...
Kisses
-R-